Well, that went well, all in all. I almost finished but in the end I was just too tired in the evening.
It was particularly hard to write because I was so full of self-doubt that I wanted to throw the towel completely. After the days before when I had enjoyed my story, and the writing, a single comment by someone regarding something else I had written seemed enough to give up completely.
I didn’t, though. I gave myself permission to write crap, sat down with my timer and wrote.
All afternoon, with breaks, and then I made pizza pane, and watched an episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation, and then I wrote some more, and then I went to bed and wrote some more.
My goal was 10,000 words, and that’s what I got. 10,949 to be exact for a total of 48,259.
I tried finishing the 50K because that was my next goal, finish NaNo on Sunday evening but I just couldn’t do it. My wrists had started being sore at around 8,000 words, and I had a headache, and I was so tired that my eyes started crossing so I stopped.
But, and that’s really important. Even though in the beginning of that day every word felt like I had to shove it on the page with force, even though writing felt like the last thing I wanted to do, and I hated every second of it, only half an hour later or though I was back in love again.
And I’m pretty sure I will manage the 50,000 words until the end of today. Maybe even before breakfast, we’ll see.